Killed by love

I know...
I just try to close my eyes to everything
The truth is our best friend
But can hurt a lot
So sometimes we just try to be blind

Every day is a struggle
I try to escape of everything by hoping
Dreaming in my little world
Far away of all

I know
I try to convince me that he's better of what he shows
But everything is against him
It's so difficult to admit that he's my biggest mistake
Cause he's the one I love
It's the one who makes me so unhappy
But also the one who knows how to make me happy

Every day I remember all the promises
The moments are engraved in my memory
I try to burn them from the inside
But my interior is flooded by all the tears

If only I could make of all my tears a river
If only I could let everything go with the current
If only he had never exist
I could still believe in a pink side of life

A smile can hide so much,but your eyes will never lie. So when you want to hide how you feel, tries to capture the looks by your smile

There is behind each women,the desire for one only men. Many can touch her,but only one can reach her heart.

We will always search an answer to a question...Cause our life is a question

Be the hero of your own life

I touched the bottom
I saw the darkness
I heared the biggest silence
I've been through the worst moments of my life

Today I reached the light again
I'm a real soldier
I survived the war between my head and my heart
I'm a survivor of this life that is mine

I've been through the fear
Now she's my strenght
I've been through the pain
Now she's my best shield

Today I've been touched by the radiation
Everything seems possible
It rained constantly in my life since months
Now I smile  every minute

I wasn't seeing other exits
Today I see many exits in this river
And the current helps me to go forward
Suddenly I have many choices and nothing is unreachable

Alive or dead?!

I thought I was strong enough
I thought I could lie to myself
But my heart tells me every day that it's not true
I give my biggest smile to everyone
But from the inside I'm drowning
Cause I miss him more than ever

I tried to save me from this love
By burning the pages
But the lack of him
Is killing me little by little

I try to find him back in my best memories
Hoping that it will bring me back to life
But more I try more I fall
Maybe because the bad memories are stronger
Or maybe because good memories will make me suffer even more
Maybe unconsciously my head is trying to help me
And is fighting with my heart
It would explain this mixture of love and hate

I just know that I'm fighting between life and dead
And am in a kind of coma
Where, the reality tries to save me
And dreams keep me in an other world

A new beginning

I say goodbye to the past
I take my keys, my sunglasses and get in the car
Alone I try a new path
I go where I want and do what I want
no more limits and rules
there is more than me, my dreams and the road
the sun touches my face
the wind mess up my hair
and the feeling of freedom is stronger than ever

I'll go where my will wants to take me
I'll follow the music of my heart
my instinct will guide me
even against the current

Nouveau départ

Je dis au revoir au passée
je prends mes clés, mes lunettes de soleil et monte en voiture
seule j'essaie un nouveau chemin
j'irais où je veux et ferais ce que je veux
finit les limites et règles
il n'y a plus que moi,mes rêves et la route
le soleil touche mon visage
le vent me décoiffe
et la sensation de liberté est plus forte que jamais

J'irais là où mon envie m’emmène
je suivrais la musique de mon coeur
mon instinct me guidera
même si contre courant 

Not a turned page but a burned page

Time is supposed to erase every past,every thing
But I still suffer in silent
And even so, the image I have of him doesn't change
They say that his return is not a good thing for me
I just prefer thinking that he's not coming back

He said so many things
He did so many things
And I still love him
My heart bleeds 
Cause I miss him

To me he is just perfect,even with his defaults
He is so mysterious and also so transparent
So cold and also so sweet
He can be a man and also a child
He changes but his soul is still the same

Love can't be explained
It's impossible to control
Love is made only to feel
It's made to live
And with no regrets

Time can't make you forget,but can do a lot of other things

We say that with the time, every past, every thing is forgotten
I got lost a day in the winter
I've spent many time finding back my way
I've been through a lot
I've changed so much
But everything was worth it
Now I'm a new women and recommend everyone to keep calm
This new "me" will not be loved by many people
But honnestly... I am a part of who they made me be
Most live with the fear of the unknown
Most live with the fear of the incertain
Well, I'm not afraid 
I'm so ready for everything that can come
I'm so ready to live what life has to give me
I suffered a lot
I've been disappointed so many times
So now I'm stronger as never
I could put the fault on life
I could put the fault on the people
But to be honnest...I thanks them
Cause without them,I would be probably not be where I am
I wouldn't be the person I am
While they were trying to harm me, I was growing up as person
I was constructing my life
While they were losing their time with my life
I was spending all my time working on my life

The truth is the last one to arrive

I've already been through a part of my way
And had to go through a lot 
I closed my eyes to many things
I controled myself many times
So don't tell me that it's my fault if it's the end

I can see what the most can't
People can say what they want
I don't care about it
Cause I'm the one who sees and feels

They think to know me so well 
That's why they do and say what they want
They think that I'll stay without saying something
Cause they're used to this side of my personality
And that's why everybody is always surprised at the end

I can show a part of me
But the best ones I'll keep them for me
They will be my best weapon
Be sure that I won't let anyone ruin my life

The most funny, is that the day that those who talks the less decide to talk,they are criticized by everyone. Maybe because they are the only ones who say true things.