Today

Today I woke up and everything was the opposite of what I wanted ...
I was alone and where I didn't want to be
The sky was dark and it was cold outside
I felt like a weight that I wanted to get rid
Everything seemed wrong


Sometimes we can be surrounded by people, but if we are not surrounded by people that have importance to us, it's like being alone
The dark sky is not helpful when already inside of us is only darkness
Cold weather does not help when our heart is freezing


If I could, today I was on the other side of the ocean
I would be somewhere in the sun or at least where people seem happier
I would be surrounded by security, stability, friendship and love
I would stay far away from those who are supposed to make me happy, but in reality only make me unhappy.
I would be free ...
free from this weight
free from pain
free from loneliness
free from fear
free from threats
free from this present who's killing me slowly
For the first time I would choose my life without fear of consequences