Who I'am...

I realized that little by little disappointment made me turn away from everyone ... Sometimes I try not to close, but whenever I want to let someone into my life, I just run away ... It's not always consciously but the result is the same ... I miss my friends, but even so I end up shutting myself in my world ... Although I'm already accustomed to suffer and I know that I will go over my pain like always, it does not change the fear I have to suffer again. ..
In my world only I exist, my dreams and goals. What does not change the fact that I am also very realistic. Although I close me in my world, I think more than most the people about everything that happens in the world around me ... I believe I don't have the right to complain about my problems, because some people is going through much worse ... I only fight for the life I want and not to live as many. Every time I leave my world to live outside, I realize how much life is sad ... I'd rather live in my world with realistic sense of the outside world, than spending 30 minutes outside having fun, and then coming back in my world and see how cruel life is in real ... Usually people think that a dreamer who lives in his world do not realize the reality that surrounds him. But even if I'm a dreamer and live in my world, I think, and I realize things that other people do not! If I dream it is because I have the notion about how sad the reality is. While many do not dream because they just do not realize ...
While I'm dreaming in my world thinking about me and including people who I want to see as part of my future, many are in the world out there, only thinking about themselves ...
I don't run away from the cruel reality with the excuse that life is like that, every man for himself, and thus also I should be! But I let me take from time to time in the world of dreams where I am happy and living in a better world, always aware that reality is quite different ...
I'm not perfect, as no one is ... I have my strengths and my weaknesses, I have my defects and my qualities. But I'm woman enough to admit my mistakes and apologize when I have to do it... I may not be what many people wanted me to be, but I do not care about what others think. I am what I am and even if life is not easy, I continue to fight for the person who I always wanted to be ... I'm proud of who I am, and who does not, does not deserve anything from me ...
Unlike many, I'm not afraid to say what I think, what I feel and show what I am!
Honestly, there was a time when I was what some people wanted me to be, only to not disappoint them. And one day these same people have disappointed me in the worst way. So since that day I think like I do now. And there will be no person that would change me. Those who will deserve me, will accept me as I am and they will give me due value. These people will not try to change me, but at most improve the person I am ;)
Sometimes I miss my past and sometimes I'm anxious to see my future... I just want to see if some things will change and if my dreams will come true :p