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Today I decided to write about me
This time no rhymes, no riddles, no games
Only the truth
Most people think I have a easy life
Others think that I only look at my life
But I see farther away, probably farther than majority
Only that this time I want to look only at my life
Enough of caring for others instead of me

Happy, easy life?
I don't know what it means!
Because instead of what everyone thinks, I never had a easy or happy life
Since I'm little that I don't know what means 
a real family
someone who cares about how I feel
someone who gives importance to what I want
Between family problems, unlived childhood, feelings stored, fear of what could happen, trying to be the proud of the parents, trying to make everyone around me happy, caring of others happiness... I forgot to live my own life and to be who I really am
The years passed and I started to be afraid of living my own life and be who I am
Maybe because I'm not used to do it and am now afraid of changing
Even if I know that sometimes we need to take risks
I know what means having people laughing of me
I know what means being the popular one
And I don't like of both
People has no idea the pression it is to be one of these persons
They can even ruin your life
Everyone passes by difficult and embarrassing moments, but what makes you a good person is that when you see someone in that situation, you go and help her instead of doing the same as the others
I don't want to be like the most people
I want to be myself
I'll try not to do the same mistakes I see around me
I'll try to have what I never had
I'll try to give others what others never gave to me

People use to tell me that I'm a big dreamer and need to put my feet on the ground
But honestly? It's because I'm a dreamer that I don't give up, stand up again everytime I fall and fight for my objectives
I prefer to believe that people one day will see who I am and my true value by being myself
I prefer to believe that I will get what I want by being myself
Because I will know that what I will have will be real, that I deserved it
And more important... I got it without being fake
Sanding others to reach what I want is a strategy I never used and hope never to use
I'm not mad with those who sanded me to get what they want
I only feel pity for them because it means they are really unhappy and insecure of their own value

I'm not ashamed to say that while the most people fight for a big career, for being "someone", for money and easy life, I fight for having my own family
Because I am already "someone", everyone is
And the true happiness is something we find with the feelings
The proof is that 
many rich people is unhappy, they are not fighting to survive but they are not really living
and poor people is fighting for surviving but is happy when is loved
many people fight a all life for superficial things and once their reach them, they are alone to enjoy them. Why? Because they only cared about them own while they were fighting for those things

Just keep in mind that the first impression is the most times the wrong one